I believe that you deserve the world, yet somehow I don’t think you always see that. But I want you to know that I often find myself wondering what I did to deserve a best friend like you.
You showed me the real meaning of what it is to have a soulmate, and bring more colors into my life. I’m a firm believer of pursuing happiness is a choice and should not depend to other people. I was happy and complete even before you came into my life, but you made this life happier and more exciting.
You’re the kind of person that people can’t live without. You come in to people’s life with a purpose and you change them. You make their life better just by being you, even you without realizing it. You light up every people’s life and lift them up in times of need. You’re a natural leader and an influencer.
You can easily make friends as many as you want, but you’re too smart to know which one you’d allow to enter your life and give your trust. You get to know them deep down to their very core, even if they are too hard to get to know. You’re always there for them, even if they’re not around when you need them. Your love is unconditional, but for you love is not an option. You’re just being you and it makes you the most beautiful soul I have ever known.
You have an amazing soul, but you don’t see that because you’re being too hard on yourself. I have no idea about your past that caused you to be like that. You have my respect and I will not tell you to change, because it made you the person you are today. But, I want to let you know that you have nothing to prove to anyone or to yourself. You have a good heart.
You have the power to change people, but you don’t allow them to change you. Never ever let them! Don’t believe them when they say that there is something that needs to change about you. You have your own flaws and mistakes, but that makes you a human. You’re perfectly imperfect. You’re fucking rude and caring. You’re hard-headed but compassionate. You’re honest and true.
I know you will never see yourself the way I have written here, but that’s how I see you every single day and that’s the reason why you really deserve the world.
Thank you for sticking by me, and allowing me to know you more. I’m so excited for the many years to come of having a best friend by my side through ups and downs. I promise that I will be here for you always, even if all else fails. I’m still here for you Besprendd!
Yet despite all the genuine things I told and showed you, you never really fail to mess things up over and over and over again. You even unwittingly put our friendship to the brink by one big lie. It seems to me that even words, at their most harsh that are thrown at you, you never seem to bother. You are never really concern about me, you never really care. You can’t show how much concern you have for me because you don’t know how to. You keep saying sorry and do the same thing you were sorry for right after. I am only human, and I am getting tired of this setup.
But even though all my trust in you was exhausted, you will still stay with me. Even though you burned out all my patience, you will still consider me as your best friend. Even when I told you to stay casual with me, again you will never listen. You said you can never go back to being casual. You will still be my best friend, you will still make me coffee in the morning, even though I do not want to. You will still cook my lunch, even though I told you to stop. You will still be my drinking buddy. You will still work out with me. You will still accompany me and Mucho to the vet. You will still be the same fucking rudest person I can only show myself to. You will still listen to my rants.
You are willing to sacrifice and get back to where you started with me. Only if it means earning my friendship back.